Stopping this Insanity!!!

Alright!!! Enough is enough!!! It is time to get my rear in gear and DO SOMETHING about this crappy attitude towards my studio!!!

I have more gadgets and fabric than I will ever use up in my lifetime here. I am very blessed that before the economy turned sour I already had a well stocked studio. I used to say I was saving for my retirement years with fabric purchases. Little did I know that a recession/depression would precede that event!!!

There is no excuse as far as supplies go, for me to not work in the studio. And I DO use that word, 'work' in the kindest sense of the word. Studio time is not drudgery time (well it shouldn't be anyway), but rather therapy time or a time of self expression.

Let's examine some of the why's of not working in my studio.

• too busy working outside the home (though I recently quit the bad job)
  
• too busy doing housework (not busy enough if you saw my house right now)
  
• too busy feeling sorry for myself (play the violins for the pity party)
  
• too busy worrying about things in life I cannot change right now (we are all going to die someday)
  
• too busy sabotaging myself with stupid feelings towards my studio, such as saying I am not worthy of having a studio because I will never make money to recoup the costs put into the fabric and supplies in here. (egads, I am always SO NOT WORTHY (GAG))
  
• my art work, craft work, and quilts will never be prize winners. (that is a lie, some have won in the distant past, but still they DID win a ribbon or two)
  
• I will never be a nationally known and sought after teacher in any of the above fields. (I WAS locally though)
  
• I am too old to try new things (and too stubborn)
  
• I should be working outside the home for more money (money, money, money...thank$ ex $pou$e for $caring me for life about money i$$ue$)
  
• I should be cleaning and organizing this house (that is true, but is it really a life-time-all-consuming goal a person needs to aspire to?)
  
• I should be painting and fixing up this house more (did I mention I am not sure what colors to paint or how certain things need to be fixed yet?)
  
• it is a waste of money to cut up expensive fabric and sew it back together in a lackluster quality quilt similar to all the other lackluster quilts we have already (pity party again)
  
• I am tired of trying to make something and have it turn out like crap (oh, and did I mention, PITY PARTY?)
  

Did I beat myself up enough yet?

I have been doing the creative prompt projects and had hoped they would inspire me to get back in the studio. I have also been looking online for different ideas to inspire me. Recently that led to a blog done by Lisa Call. I don't know much about her yet, but she recently posted this blog entry about "How to get stuff done" that caught my eye.

Today I am going to work on setting some goals and utilizing some of Lisa's ideas/inspirations in my own sketch book, to see if I can't get over this crap that I have allowed to creep in and take over my life. I will scan my results into my blog here tomorrow at the latest.

GOAL FOR TODAY: Sketchbook work to organize and commit .... I will try to make a week long schedule, and commit to making a schedule for Saturday and Sunday at the very very least and I will post it along with the two creative prompts I have done but not posted yet.

Hang on everyone, this could be a bumpy ride...or a very boring one!

An Orange Beacon

It is a cloudy day and that fits the mood I am in as I continue to struggle with work. I wish there was a defining train of thought or "thing" I could label work issues with. I've gone from liking my job to getting ill when thinking about going to work and losing sleep over it as well. I am going to have to quit I guess. It can't be healthy for me to continue on this way!

Ok, dramatics are over and now on with my creative prompt doodles. Last week the word was Orange. I did the obvious in drawing oranges to make the word orange. The lemon is in there because oranges are in the citrus family. The grapes are a fruit, like oranges are a fruit...and I have been eating them a lot lately. :) The pumpkin pie is orange colored and we had one for Easter dinner. So this isn't very dramatic or enlightening, but it is orange!

This week's word is Beacon. The obvious thought is a lighthouse beacon. I did a flashlight beacon and added a beacon to the word beacon at the bottom of the drawing. Does anyone want to venture why there are two strips of bacon in this drawing? Oh, and the book is to depict mystery books that often have a detective with a flashlight pictured on the cover. I just started reading Terri Thayer's book "Stamped Out" as our library hasn't gotten her new book in, "Ocean Waves." Ocean Waves" is the third in a series she's done. I like her books as they take me back to northern California and a quilting mentality I can relate to.
But I digress. In the studio yesterday I made new lacy green curtains for the kitchen. I love how they turned out! I also started sewing the strips together for the wedding ring quilt. Sorry there are no photos of either project though.

Now I need to get ready to drag myself to work. BLAH!!! This just isn't like me to hate doing something so much!!! Sorry dear readers, for venting about non-creative stuff today. Have a terrific weekend and do some quilting for me!!!